Saturday, May 14, 2011

"These soft nights hold me like themselves aloft
and I lie without a lover."
~Rainer Maria Rilke

My husband and I don't spend many days or nights apart. I haven't spent so long away from him since our wedding, and it's a lonely experience. The nights especially, not only am I lying alone in a strange bed, I'm alone without my familiar nights. Away from the yurt, I miss the moon and the stars, the frogs peeping down by the stream and the wind in the trees. I miss my husband's warm, rich voice and his presence, with fills the night with comfort.

I think my restless days are ending. Travel has less appeal - I never thought it would, but I'm more and more attached to the bit of land we've made our own. As we continue to put down roots - planting, adding animals, buildings, and the baby, wandering becomes less likely, and less of a need in me. I have my woods to wander through, my stream to discover anew each day, and the ever-changing seasons to alter my scenery. I think I've become content - something I never expected to be. Happiness and joy have been mine almost continually in life, but contentment and restfulness, I never expected.

That's not to say I'm not enjoying my visit. My family is always a joy to spend time with, and I find myself appreciating them more and more. I'm glad I came out to cheer my youngest brother's graduation, and celebrate my baby with those who knew me as a baby, but I will be glad to come home to my husband, our home, and the life we're shaping together.


  1. I know what you mean about the restless days ending.

    We only rent right now, but I... just love home. Travel is all right, and kind of exhausting, and sometimes it's nice to get into a warmer and drier climate, but it's always good to be home again. Contentment is the right word. :)

    Happy travels and a safe return home to you.

  2. Thanks! It was a fun trip, but I'm So Happy to be home again. Home is such a beautiful place, where-ever it is.

    We rented until just last summer, I loved our apartment, even if I didn' quite love the city it was in! Enjoy your renting days, it's such a fun and exciting time, there are so many Possibilities that are just waiting to be acted on.